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direction
My undergraduate collge life is coming to a busy, anxious and somewhat unclimactic end, and to tell ya the truth, I don’t think I have much to show for it. That’s not to say that I havn’t learned many things and experienced countless life changing moments. The thing is, I went to this career fair the other day, and I really wished I could approach any table and fascinate potential employers with an amazing portfolio, and show that I have what it takes to get a great job out of college. Although I made some good impressions and contacts, I left the fair a bit disappointed. First off, because there weren’t many places there I’d like to work, and it just made me realize that I havn’t kept track of many projects and other work I’ve done over the years that I could use for my portfolio. Tonight I’ll be looking at one tape of projects from a video production class I took. I already know its not the best I have to show, but I don’t have much to choose from. This portfolio is more or less just an assignment for my senior seminar class, but it might come in handy someday in an interview as well.
Right now, I just feel like I’m simply going with the motions. What I want to do is really find out what is out there for what I’m interested in and how to get involved. Honestly, I need to find out what I’m interested in. That’s probably where this is all stemmed from. I never really got fully involved with a group or activity in school that would’ve helped with this dilema. In my mind, there was blind faith that things would be alright, whether I was crazy involved or not. Like I didn’t have to be like everybody else and somehow a job would land in my lap and life would be set. Don’t get me wrong, I am confident in my abilities and experience for finding a job, I’m just not as secure with my future as I would like. I’ve never really liked to look that far into the future, but I gotta have a starting point to build on a career, and at this point it doesn’t feel right. We’ll have to see what happens with all that.
That’s where my mind is at right now, I wish I was in a more positive mood, but like they say in the states, things like this happen.
-things you need to look at-
what i’m listening to
what i’m watching
what i’m reading
das ist alles.
video man
There is something about a video camera that freaks people out. Since I’ve worked as a videographer at the school newspaper, this notion has caused me to ponder, why? I’ve never really seen a still photographer or a reporter garner the attention I get at various events. For some reason, once a person knows there is a video, they spaz out. In turn, I spaz out too, its not like I have an agenda of making people look bad, I work for a newspaper, my job is to document what is going on, video is a great tool cause it doesn’t lie. I recently covered an open forum where students had the opportunity to ask questions to a candidate for a diversity position on campus. He knew there was press in the room, and where I was from. Yet in the middle of the forum, he stopped in the middle of answering more than one question to focus on my presence, one time frankly telling me to turn the camera off. From my point of view, I was like, hey man, you’re here for the students, not me. I think by showing his discomfort with me and continually using me as a way to avoid the topic, he hurt his chances of winning over the students.
I don’t know man..it just makes me nervous once I get put on the spot, being interrogated about what I’m doing, where I’m from and so on. I’m not all that comfortable with confrontations. I’m also not going to turn off my camera just cause. This is the news, it doesn’t just stop because you don’t like cameras.
Now that I’ve gotten all anxious about the situation thats all I can think about, and the things I should’ve said to this guy. It bugs the crap out of me when I have to deal with that kind of stuff. I just wish people didn’t spaz out when the video man is in the room.
ugh!
on break
In case you’re wondering, my cough is finally starting to subside. Thank goodness.
In other news, its spring break. For me, that means a whole lotta TV and sleep, which I am thankful for. Especially with this whole sickness thing. I do have to work on a presentation on blogging though, should be fun.
Being that it is March already, I am beginning to feel the anxiety seep in concerning finding a job post-graduation. Once I get back to school my top priority will be making my portfolio and sending it/resumes out all over. It must be done. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep everything cool and still be able to take advantage of my last days as an undergrad.
check this out, its what I’m listening to at the moment, of montreal.
What kind of haircut should I get?
